Honest Hour

You’re nothing to me

During the day

I couldn’t care less

About what you do or say

 

I’ve got things to do

And that’s alright with me

It doesn’t really matter

If you’d disagree

 

But then daytime goes

To sleep too soon

And the night’s a relentless confessor

For you had me at my honest hour

Where lies couldn’t be used as armour

 

And as you had me at my honest hour

Where the truth ticks in every second

I told you I love you

And I regret that happened.

We Are Walking Questions

We Are Walking Questions

We are walking questions,
Moving toward running answers.
Sometimes we walk too fast,
And often we walk too slow,
That the answers dart out of sight,
And the answers we fail to know.

We become the walking questioned,
Without the present answers.
We walk too fast; we stumble.
We walk too slow; we get left behind.

The answers? They are ever-changing.
We fail to know. We fail to know.

BTW, HAPPY HOLIDAYS! :)

Execution

Chill. Not that kind where one’s life gets taken away. But that kind where the rut goes away.

Sometimes the planning is what makes something not happen at all. More often than not, planning consumes the energy we should have exerted into the execution of things planned. We end up staring at the list we made, wondering where all the time went. We are left with a piece of paper of things we did not do. We go to sleep, with full determination that tomorrow will be the big day- the day when we see checkmarks on our list. And yet tomorrow is that unicorn-like fantasy where we achieve everything in our list. But fantasies are mere fantasies; they only elicit sheepish smiles.

I was always a planner. I still am, really. So basically, I liked the feeling of finishing something before the deadline. Nah, just kidding. I have never felt that way before.

I know the feeling of pressure, though. The feeling where you block everything around you, and all your energy is channeled into that thing you have to get done. Where you do not get hungry, sleepy, and distracted. As if your life depended on beating that deadline. And that happens every single time.

So I tried fooling myself, acting as if every day was a deadline. But c’mon, how do you fool yourself?

Well, the reward system was going along well, until I began reaping the rewards before doing the tasks. Hopeless case, huh.

So I ended up removing the roots of distraction… and crashed into looking for new sources of the same.

Then I realized I needed to be watched like a toddler. Or guided. Or supervised. Or scolded.

Or I just needed a friend to remind me. Or a trainer.

But the execution part, that’s actually something I realized that should be started only when you’re ready. Physically and emotionally. Not halfheartedly, but with all the guns blazing. But all these realizations should only be contemplated when you have your list done. So the planning and the “realizing” are ruining my “executing.”

Enough.

Time to get my game face on– I mean, work face. what.

Stuck

With this borrowed time
Should I stop and consider
What to do, where to step
And where to linger

Is it criminal to breathe
A little more cheery air
Or to simply pass through
The judging, lonely stares

Is it proper to choose
Those things not life-like
And hold on to the
Opaques non-spiritual

Could life be
A little more people-friendly
And give us all a walkthrough
Far from this paralyzing insanity

Still I wonder
I do too wander
And lost I’ve become
Like every unmoving thinker.

The Other Wing

(Because I am temporarily blue.  Yet not as happy as a smurf)

And to think we tried- to tip the scales
in our favor. To battle Reality who shoots
for no reason. Who bruises our fantasies
just because he can.

Like misguided little birds who lost coordination
we were all bound to lose direction in the end.
And one after another our feathers fell.

One wing now broken- can the other wing
still manage to bring us to the skies we
have imagined?

This Time

 

This Time

It will be right this time, I’ll choose not with my sight

But with more than five senses; It will feel right this time

Regardless of the flaws I might instantly perceive

I swear I won’t leave

This time, I’ll wait for redeeming qualities for surely

You must have some, every one has some I know

But would you hurry up please, I’m anxious to know how I’d

Behave and how you would too

For I’m certain we’re both longing for that feeling

We thought would never be felt again

Would you promise me though,

That when your clothes have finally fallen,

You’ll bare to me your heart instead?

 

-KKIB

 

Dear Soul

Dear Soul of Mine.

One day, I’ll try to please my soul. 

To understand my soul’s needs

To stop my soul’s frustration

Every time my soul tries to understand me.

 

I’ll mend this inner conflict, forge a lasting compromise.

I will look for that silver lining that is marred

by black and white. 

 
I’ll speak pure words, untainted by pretension, so you

my soul could smile.

But for now my soul, please bear with me.

 
I’m being human for awhile.